All it takes is a little bit of perspective. When you’re doubting your relationship, or your friend with benefits, or your more than friends, or whatever the fuck it is, all you need is perspective.
I thought boys hitting on me would make me feel better about being wanted and appreciated but in actuality all it did was make me think of you. And how no drunk flirt in the world compares to you.
And how every “bad” moment with you is 8 million times better than any “good” moment I have with anybody else.
Nothing is certain, nothing is for sure. But for now, at this moment in time, where I am mentally and emotionally, all I want and need is you.
Everybody thinks that getting a boyfriend or a girlfriend means having a combined happiness of two people but more often than not it’s the combined problems of two people. You are ready for a relationship if you’re sure you can handle your problems plus someone else’s. And I’m not entirely sure I can handle it. But I want to, and I think that’s close enough.
“Part of the reason I’m attracted to him is because he’s such a mess. The people I have loved in my life have never been easy to love. I’m not used to normal. I’m used to disaster. I don’t know, as messed up as he is, he’s also sort of exciting, sort of a challenge. I’m accustomed to working for love.”—Augusten Burroughs
Work today was pretty fun. We had a potluck and a secret santa exchange. Did a few hair cuts then closed up early because it was slow. Tonight I’m going to the Marriott Hotel with Kelley for a fancy Christmas Eve dinner, then sleeping over Matos’ and spending my whole Christmas day with him. I love this time of year.
“I don’t give up easily; I fight for what I want. It takes a lot for me to actually give up on something or someone. I can’t just throw away all the hard work and time I put into it. I can’t just give up because times are hard, especially if that person means so much to me. I keep fighting for what I want until I can’t fight anymore, until giving up is the only option left.”—(via raindropsonredroses)